Okay, so here’s what happened. My boyfriend and I were seriously talking about break-ups. He was like, “Paano kung magbreak tayo, anong gagawin mo?”. Well, while we were chatting, we could also see each other at the same time via webcam. Of course, all of our facial expressions and reactions would be seen.
When he asked that question, I was supposed to put on a disappointed straight face as I chose to. However, at the same time, I was talking to someone else. Right after my dear boyfriend asked me that question, the other person I was talking to said, “Hey, do you know the Bananas in Pajamas?”.
SHIT.
My initial reaction? OF COURSE, I couldn’t help it but laugh. I tried my utmost best to put on the straight face I was supposed to have on, however, my smile won’t get out of my face.
Yeah, the moment my boyfriend saw my face brighten, he told me that I obviously would be very happy to have a break-up with him. SHIT. That just sucks! It all happened due to wrong timing! I explained to my boyfriend that I smiled not because of the break-up question but because of the Bananas in Pajamas line. Of course, his mood went off. He got pissed off coz he was simply convincing himself that I would be glad that we’d break up anytime. I explained to him that it wasn’t true and I wouldn’t tolerate that to happen and all of my cheesy talk. Damn it, he still wasn’t convinced.
As of now, he won’t talk to me. He’s fucking pissed. Well, he’s not only pissed because of that but also because of the only issue we both disagree on. I’m sorry, but there is no freaking way on earth I’m giving you that until I am assured of the fact that you are and will be the one I’ll be spending my life with.
As we know, we both are still young. It would be 7-9 years till marriage would come to our dictionaries. Sorry but my dignity means the world to me. What if I give you that and in a month or a year, you’d leave me? That is something I can’t afford to happen. And shit, I don’t give a damn if everybody around me does the same thing. I don’t follow that trend. I’m not like the other girls you encountered. Like we both know, love will ovecome this. Yes, thank you very much for respecting my decision. But why the hell do have to tell me, “Magtitiis na lang ako. Manhid na rin naman ako kakatiis eh. Sanay na ako. Tiis na lang.” Alam mo ba na sa mga sinasabi mo ay nangongonsensya ka?! Tapos sasabihin mo sa akin na labis kang nasasaktan dahil naiisip ko na yan lang ang habol mo sa akin.
Yes, I do know that isn’t what you want from me. You love me and you have proven it way more than you’re supposed to. Thank you for that. I really appreciate all of your efforts. And NO, hindi ko pinapamukha sa iyo na iniisip kong hindi mo ako naaappreciate. Tss.
Men sometimes get really shallow, don’t you guys agree? Well, not all of them, though. I’m just expressing and letting this heavy feel out of my chest. Takte, patigasan na naman ‘to. Psh, tss, and hmp. :|
