my life now. :)

(i just copied and pasted this blog of mine. it was written on November 21, 2009)

my life, as of now, is what i can say as satisfactory. yes, im happy that ive crossed the grueling obstacles that ive faced in the past few months; im happy with everyone in my life now. in short, my life is back on track. however, honestly speaking, though im happy with what and who i have now, there’s still something missing. actually, not something, a lot of things. yeah. i do miss a lot of things..:((

i miss those days when my classmates would bring guitars to school and we would all be jamming together while laughing out loud. i miss those days when i had no clue what’s coming up next for me in loving him, those 3 lingering years..gosh..i really miss that. hindi ko alam kung kikiligin ba ako o masasaktan nung time na un. grabe, i soo damn miss those three years. magmula august 9, 2005 until late this year. xhet. it was definitely an adventurous trip. the only thing i miss about that is the fact that i had no clue what’s going to happen next. you see, i don’t like life being so stable. mysteries and adventures make my life go round. i miss those texting days. potek. i miss that day when zyra went in front of the class and discussed how to become a BPA member, kesyo kailangan maging seductive and all that stuff. haha! nkkmiss talaga. I MISS ZYRA SORIANO!:(( sobraa!:(( i truly believe that distance promotes friendship. before a friend of mine moved to the Philippines, we weren’t actually that close; but now, grabe, she knows pretty much everything about me and same din ako sa kanya. ichaii..SARAH PATRICIA CAYETANO.. I MISS YOU SOO MUCH!:(( thank you sa lahat ichaii a..labyu!:D

this is the hard part, excuse me, the hardest part as i can say. i miss d-jam, so much, ung mga times na sabay sabay kami bumababa and those kulitan times, xhet; and most of all, i miss BPA! soobraa!:(( imagine, our third anniversary is coming this 20th of december and we’re kinda broke. xhet. whatever happened to “tong-pakitong-kitong”? can’t we just go back to where we were? kahit para kay zyra na lang?:(( i may look happy, pero kasi, kulang talaga kapag wala ang bpa sa buhay ko ee. alam nyo un? yeah, i know, my mga nagawa rin ako sa atin. sumama ako sa iba and stuff, problemado ako nun ee. kinailangan kong lumayo. space lang naman ang kinailangan ko nun ee. but di ba, i have always told the both of you nman ee, laging nasa puso ko ang bpa, hinding-hindi un mawawala. damn. i miss bpa soo much!:(( one great big hug lang sana. ayos na sa akin.:(( i miss us. sana mabatid nyong dalawa un..:(( mahal na mahal ko ang bpa. tayo. zyra! :(( i just want things back the way they were. :(( my chance pa ba para sa atin? sana nman oo. at sorry sa lahat ng nagawa ko sa atin. sobrang sorry. mahal n mahal ko kayo. i won’t afford to lose you. :((

at ikaw, oo, ikaw. you know who you are. papalapit na ang unang, first, haii. alam mo na un. tapos nagkaganito pa tayo. sorry kung wrong timing ako nagtanong. may pagkalokaret din kasi ako. wrong timing tamaan ng topak. but kasi, i really had to know ee. nababaliw na rin kasi ako sa kakaisip tungkol dyan. but kahit ganyan pa. aii nko. i love you soo much!ok? i know naman na we’d get this over with. gaya nga ng sabi nila. the thing that we’re sharing now never ran smooth, laging my obstacles. abnormal na lang kung walang problema. ok? wag ka mag-alala, hindi ako galit sa nalaman ko. i totally understand what you exactly feel. naiintindihan ko naman yan ee. ang puso’y hindi natin natuturuan. kung kanino nya gusto, dun xa magkakagusto kahit ayaw pa nten. yeah i know that. at tsaka, alam ko naman na tinie weenie itsy bitsy konti lang talaga. NAIINTINDIHAN KITA. sobraa. believe me, i really do. kaya ayos lang sken ung sinabi mo sken kagabi. dont be sad na ha. please lang. alam ko naman na wala lang un. i mean, its soo damn minor lang, nasa akin ang majority!:)) dba?oh please dont tell me im wrong about that..hehe!:P basta. naiintndhan kita and umayos ka. dapat after two days ayos na. araw nten un ee! balewalain mo na muna un kahit sa araw n un..okii?hehe! pasaway ka talaga daniah ee nu? nakuha pang magpatawa. ganyan talaga. dapat laging my comedy. hehe!:P:)) ndii pwedeng laging sad. oh yes!:P bsta a. be happy na. i totally understand you. at alam mo? tutulungan kita dyan. kaya nga ako nandito ee. im always here for you. if you need help about that. aba! andito na si kagandahang daniah! she’ll try her utmost best to wipe all your problems away. madali lang un. may super powers kaya ako. hehe!:P nman ee. ngitii naman dyan.:P pinapatawa lang kita. ang mahalaga naman is kung ano tayo ngayon ee. naalala mo ung nangyari last week di ba? soo damn traumatic. but you see.. we’re over with that. this week iba nanaman. tingnan mo. by next week ayos na ulit. hehe! i mean. sa saturday ayos na. i guess? sana di ba? ok? bsta. ily so much. at katulad ng sinabi ko sa bpa. i can’t afford to lose you.:(

haii..zyra, sarah, d-jam, BPA!:(( ung tatlong taon na un!my goodness. kaya nga tuwang tuwa ako sa highschool life ko ee. malapit man matapos pero my goodness!ang dami kong naranasan na alam kong, pagnakatapos na ako sa pag-aaral ko ay pagtatawanan ko na lang ang mga ito. nakakatuwa kasii talaga. salamat sa inyong lahat sa mga experiences. at sa iyo nman. i hope na makikilala mo kung sino ka. SALAMAT. sa lahat. you made the 98% of who i am today. sa dami ba naman ng naranasan ko sau ee. kkloka talaga. haha! i mean, seriously speaking, ikaw ang dahilan kung bkit si daniah ay si daniah. yes nman!:P imagine, from that 9th of august 2005 text na “please lang pakidelete mo na ang mga text ko at number ko..” from the 24th of july 2008 text na “SORRY..” grabe. see? you think in that almost three years konti lang nadaanan ko? DEFINITELY NOT!..hehe!:P bka nman kng sinuman makabasa nito ay bigyan nanaman ng MASAMANG MEANING toh. kesyo may gusto akong sirain and stuff, back off major loser. it aint my intention. my buhay din ako. wag nyo na pakeelaman. at naku! this time papatulan ko na talaga kayo. hindi na lang ako umiimiik. pero isa pa at naku naku! ewan ko xenu!:)) namumuro na kayo nyan a. nagpapasalamat lang nman ako ee. got a problem with that? pati ba naman kasii yan bibigyan niyo pa ng malisya. get a life sistah.:)) dont mess with the best coz the best dont mess. haha!:P potek. going back. xnxa ka na naputol ung speech ko, baka kasii awayin nanaman ako ng kung sino sinong mukhang gulo..:)) aun nga.haha! kulit a! pasaway!:)) ok ok..eto na. back to the topic..hehe!peace..:D thank you sa mga experiences a. hanggang ngayon nga hindi ako makapaniwala na nung second year foundation day. nilagay mo daw ung masking tape na may nakasulat na “ADAM” sa likod mo. wala lang. haha! kinwento lang kasii sken un ee. hindi ko naman nakita. haha! tapos, di ba sarah, kayzee, roneille? family day. the cry thingy? oh my God. that was a breakthrough. nakakaloka.:))=)) at maramin pang iba’t ibang experiences. jusmee! aun. salamat a!sa lahat. at sa mga malisyosa at malisyoso. back off losers, kung ano ano nanaman iniisip nyo, tapos? tatawag kayo sken habang nananahimik akong nkikipagchat, tpos ano? death threat na ang matatanggap ko ngayon?:)) lokaret ka talaga daniah. quiet ka na nga lang. nbababaliw ka nanaman ee.:)) wuii a. thank you talaga. so much.

aun. i just wrote this to release what im feeling deep inside. feeling ko nga kung saan saan na napunta ung mga sinabi ko ee. pero ok nga un ee. at least naman nasabi ko ang mga gusto kong sabihin dba? hehe! and haii salamat. i just am happy to say na. i sighed. haha! a sigh of relief. whew! ikaw. mahal na mahal kita. bpa. i want us back. zyra soriano and sarah cayetano. oh do come back. miss na miss ko na kayo.:(( at sa iyo. salamat ulit. maraming maraming salamat sa lahat. at ang buhay ko ngayon. masaya khit may mga kulang. in fact, im contented naman ee. its just. it would be way better kung andyan ung mga kulang dba? sobrang ok! hehe! umm. sa Inyo po, God, thank You for everything. salamat po sa lahat ng mga biyayang binibigay Niyo po sa akin at hindi lamang po sa akin kung hindi na rin po sa pamilya ko, mga kaibigan at ang iba pang mga mahal ko po sa buhay. thank You very very much po. sa mga napakamaunawaing mga guro ko na sila Maam Rosie at Maam Azenith. maraming maraming salamat po sa lahat. grabe. you gave my very challenging senior life a meaning. salamat po na kahit papaano po, ay napagaan niyo po ang mga problemang dumating sa akin ngayong ikaapat na taon ko sa hayskul. super thank you very very much. thanks for teaching me a lot of stuff. academically and most of all, morally. thanks for always being there for me. i’m very grateful that i’ve met people so irreplaceable like you. thank you po!so much!:D

and this is the end of my second blog entry. hehe!o xa.. ingat na lang..God bless us all. and once again, thank you sa mga taong nabanggit ko. sobraa. madali at mabilis mo lang pala masusulat ang ganito kahabang sulat kung straight from the heart talaga ee nu? sabi ko nga sa sarili ko na dapat english lahat ito ee. kaya tingnan nyo ung first part. english di ba? ee kasi nman. hindi ko na maiexpress ung gusto kong sabihin ee. kaya i ended up in mixing it up with Filipino. hehe! at least naman nasabii ko ung mga gusto kong sabihin at gusto kong mabatid nyo nu..hehe! i love you all..mua!:D